Killer dad Alan Hawe admitted he “enjoyed” murdering his sons in sick note

Alan Hawe, 40, slaughtered Clodagh Hawe, 39, and their three sons Liam, Niall and Ryan in August 2016 before hanging himself in their Co Cavan home in Ireland

A ‘porn addict’ dad who slaughtered his wife and three boys admitted he “enjoyed” killing his sons in a sick letter.

Alan Hawe, 40, massacred his wife Clodagh, 39, and children Liam, Niall and Ryan in August 2016.

In a note he wrote: “I think there was some sort of psychosis that made me enjoy that,” the Irish Mirror reports.

The sequence of Hawe’s deadly actions has now become clear to the victims’ loved ones.

It is believed he brutally murdered his wife first as she sat on the settee in the sitting room of their home in Ireland.

He then sat down at the kitchen table to write his murder-suicide letter which was sealed in an envelope.

Afterwards, he took a second knife, this time a Kitchen Devil, and walked upstairs to attack his three sleeping sons.

He returned downstairs, again took up his pen and, with the children dead in their beds, he wrote a second note on the exterior of the sealed envelope.

Here he confessed how he had felt during the murders before apologising for his actions.

This second note started with these chilling words: “All the good stuff we did I was really into it.

“But I think there was some sort of psychosis that made me enjoy that yet in the next moment I was the complete opposite.

“I’m sorry for how I murdered them all but I simply had no other way.”

The boys’ aunt Jacqueline Connolly said: “We know now that he killed Clodagh first.

“We know from the inquest that he killed the people first that would be deemed well able to stand up to him.

“The axe he killed Clodagh with was always kept in the shed outside so we know that at some stage before the time he killed Clodagh he had brought it into the house.

“He had already moved the furniture so that Clodagh would have her back to him as he walked into the sitting room.

“We know Clodagh was online looking up holidays at the time and she was having a cup of tea.

“He came in behind her and he hit her in the head with the axe and he stabbed her in the back and she put up her hand to defend herself and he basically nearly sawed her hand off.

“He killed her like he hated her. He didn’t need to use two weapons, he killed her with such brutality it 
was evil.

“He then sat down and he wrote the letter because he had left the axe and the knife on the floor. He took up a new knife and went upstairs.”

The children were asleep in two bedrooms, Liam, 13, and Niall, 11, in one and six-year-old Ryan in his own room.

Jacqueline explained: “We know he put his knee on Liam’s chest and cut through his windpipe to render him silent.

“Niall was sharing a room with Liam so Niall probably wouldn’t have woken up because Liam couldn’t scream out but he had defensive wounds on his hands.

“He did the same to Niall and then he went to Ryan’s room. Ryan was the smallest of the three of them.

“He was very slight and thin for his age but during the inquest we were told that [Hawe] used a sawing action on Ryan and then he just threw a duvet cover over all of them and left the knife that he used on Ryan’s pillow. That is evil.

“That is not depression. That is force brutality and it is control.”

Hawe left one final message.

He wrote: “I’m sure I’ve gotten lots of what I wanted to say properly, some badly. I know to many I was 
so nice to them but they never knew the real me.

“God bless you all. Be good to your families. I just don’t know what it was that I was so normal yet so dark and no one could see it.”